Swollen Ankle After Razor Cut Bipolar Disorder/ Manic Depression?

Bipolar Disorder/ Manic Depression? - swollen ankle after razor cut

Hello. I am a girl of thirteen years, which has always tried to commit suicide through a traumatic hemorrhage. and, unfortunately, did not succeed. So instead of trying to commit suicide every day, I cut myself. in the legs, ankles, wrists. This is not a single tear. He kept cutting more than 30 cuts of up to a lot of blood came out. My friends think I have a big psychological problem associated with depression. I make cuts with knives, razor blades, scissors, knives, broken glass or knives. ang legs dolls I still have scars that the color of my skin and make uneven. These sections are so clearly inhuman, because even after one day, still red as blood. I try not to make them visible by all possible means. I hide the clock for big wrist, and luckily, our uniform coat or hideand cuts on his thighs. I lift up my socks too high to hide the ankles. Call me crazy, because I can not see red ovelapping more cuts. some of my friends are angry with me because I do not want to stop. Some do not even speak to me. to do with all the cutting and suicide attempts. everything is already planned in my notes. Now I want to say, my parents, that there is something wrong with me. Every night I cry and cut, then in the morning my eyes would be swollen all over the world to reach my short and very painful. My life has just been ****** lately that I also feel depressed. I would like to see a doctor and heal them. I really want to heal them. but I do not know how my parents that I say see say, so they have a doctor, what kind of mental disorder, they may have. (I'm sure, tell me and my friends, they suffer from a bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness), but I say, know-how, to my mom or dad. seems only too bold to say: "Mom, I cut very badly and want to see a doctor." I need help. I need help badly.